Dashed dreams

There is a very good chance I will not be able to go to the school I got accepted to. Im still going to California, but I can only get a tiny amount of finacial aide, and I cant get a privet loan. I am not going to spend 6 years in school just because I am broke, its not worth it. By the time I am out my leads and contacts in the industry will have died and dried up. Some dreams arnt worth keeping alive. I was crazy to think I could follow my heart as a white woman. I just dont qualify.